How I long to believe in something –
how the world lets me down each time I try –
everything I believe in
seems destined to wither and die –
My heart remains full of visions
as my mind stays full of songs –
but the words die on my lips
when I ponder the past gone wrong.
I admire the certainty heard
in the voices of other people –
so sure of themselves they drown out
my voice; so frail and feeble –
How I long to believe in something –
but life has taught me – and harshly:
no truth stays truthful for long;
there is no such thing as certainty
So I maintain my silent vigil
over dreams buried and gone
and scoff at the people around me
who thinks they are right and I’m wrong
How I wish that I never believed –
that I never allowed hope to stain
my mind with its reveries…
How I wish it hadn’t all been in vain.